The storm, that someone had caused me.
I was out of control. I was in denial. I was not letting myself to stick with the truth; that I am no longer someones favorite.
Until You came.
You proved me that He changed it for the better.
You; Once, a stranger.
You; Oxygen to my lung.
31st of May 2016
Was ultimately the best day I have ever had.
Makanan yang biasa-biasa, jadi terlalu sedap.
Kerusi Subway yang keras, tiba-tiba jadi lembut.
Air yang tawar tiba-tiba jadi manis.
I let you fill in my soul.
I hold you so close, in adjacent of my heart,
and my ribs hurt from the pressure.
22nd of February 2018.
I created the poison to my heart.
I can barely accept that You are not You anymore.
you; a Lie.
you; a False Hope.
you; an Ego.
you; no longer a You.
you; the second one who has caused me the Storm.
you; eating me alive.
Our SR-Shinjuku date,
Our IKEA date,
Our lunch date,
is not going to happen.
The promises, are no longer promises.
I'm a liability, I'm a little much for you. So, we can't make our dreams true.
I do not know, what makes me cry for too much in every second.
I do not know, how much did I waste my tears for.
I do not know, why did all of these hurt me so bad.
And I do not know, for how long will I be in this Storm of my heart.
Saya tak kuat.
Why can't you be You..
You don't love me anymore, don't you?